silence resolved to make change.

These days find more pleasure in baby, the God of Universe, who in dream informed me he is indeed my dearest son in our trinity. he enjoys more under my custody, and i tried my best to cater to his play. these days our main play is pc game, dined out, but i planned to bring him haunt more places, like garden, zoo, library, asylum, etc. God, equipped me with adequate courage, financial support, and interesting places&persons. God, times belongs to baby son, God of Universe, Hope of China, can’t be more wonderful. God, sees our journey!
its a cloudy Sunday morning. i enjoy late sleep, got up after 10am. in restaurant before served, i deeply missing baby son, worried if he felt lonely or boring. the lunch was quite delicious, but God urged me to act to rid baby from boring or motionless. on way to office, i buzzed him, his mom shown irritation and impatient as usual, but baby son glad to accept my suggestion to visit municipal library next weekend. God, u know how i love and endear baby son, Masheng, u know how lovable baby son is, cared my baby, let him enjoy staying on the planet!
its now mostly bright outside. i don’t want repent, God, let me active. this weekend i will busy with my posting, but i would promise here i will bring more fantasy to baby who still in comprehension to the world. God, don’t let me unsettled. 

13/8/2010

my e-payment now ready.^read on cleaner os&felt glad. tried to reclaim one of baby’s 163 accounts, warrenzh@163.com, which stealed months ago, but failed. at noon registered an account with ChinaPost and bound it with my alipay account, recharged it ￥40. now i can pay overseas bills. the sins in office challenged all time, esp. the dirty monitor, stayed at noon lately. later they babbled about cadres’ promotion within the company. the facing dog tried every chance to show his orthodox, likes a monkey in clothes. they stayed in office after work time, but soon called to gather&left to celebrating the personnel changes refered above, which likely including their close friends’ promotion. i sorted stuff from web&felt glad. leaving office before 5:30pm in bright sunshine. the dorms’ canteen deteriorating, sold out so early the prepared meal, forced me to order to cook my dinner, which cost me ￥18 even there is nothing delicious nor enough of food, while a common ready meal only costs ￥6. for the garden bench occupied by a male, i roamed out first, then rest for a long time till dusk almost cover the garden of the dorms. sorted portable in dorm. God, the land of China is my property, all trades of cadres in nowadays China is baseless&disappear in my emerging Empire of China. brings my girls, my crowned Queens sooner, God. in these beautiful silent moments in echo of ur holy, i trust u let my elation of reunification among my beloved sooner descending me.

12/8/2010

enjoy toast mutton stick with baby&his mom. dreamed of Masheng.^read most day while d/l. tried gmail new interface in afternoon. sorted contacts then&backup. chat with hometown folks about weather, my works online. visit telcom office before leaving for baby for my ill cellphone which recently can’t access wap via gprs, but the clerk woman didn’t figure it out. dined with baby son&his mom near their house, with toast mutton. i ate enough mutton till full. told baby how i missing him. ema invited me to eat watermelon in her home, so i accompanied them return there. returned to dorm after it turns cloudy, rest awhile on bench, then decided to inquire my bank account to verify my alipay’s account for real person behind my ID there. restored os in night, for the windows lagging heavily in afternoon. God, saves my works.
this dawn dreamed of college alumni gathering. then dreamed of Masheng, my Crowned Queen of Japan, who once studied in Nankai Univ with me. dreamed searching her thesis&found 2 or 3. one is about Chinese traditional works, “the art of war” by SunTzu. other thesis i forget now but likely touched our love.
its a brilliant morning now. yesterday when i took bus to meet baby, its drizzled while sunny, so amazing fresh; in night when i sat side by side in a neighbor dorm room with a new QRRS graduate&watching movie on his notebook, he had to cross his legs soon to avoid my presence, then a thunderstorm poured in, informs me how i different from common people. God, brings me my girls i deserves.

11/8/2010

a bright&fresh day.^found another google account hacked&break-in. first time tried google’s multi-logon. read most day. the gay monitor profaned heavily, lasted near 5:30pm. God sees their scattering&deeper hell. enjoyed stuff from web. fixed broken autoposting. trying to correct wap settings on my cellphone which recent suddenly can’t surf, but failed. the shit dog in neighbor room again lied&refused to help my referring his cell’s settings. that all let me sees clear the dying department. in night lectured in a neighbor dorm to new QRRS graduates about cellphone’s os, people’s power to change world with their spendings. its a bright morning now. i see God’s blessing upon me&my girls.

10/8/2010

evil knocks door.^read all day. one of my google account, benzillar under attacks&broke. gmail warned me the break-in&let me reinforce it with new password. i did, in God’s blessing i left my other web assets intact in God’s judge. its all day gloomy. after dinner i sat on the garden bench again, then roamed outside. i felt need more heat so i decided to snack with toast mutton on way back. i buzzed baby’s mom, who brought baby son haunting KFC, want to treat them with the snack with me, but they rebuffed. a winter is striding toward us, i foreseeing i need more expense on meat. God, saves me from last year’s embarrass of penniless. bring me a warm&richer family sooner, in ur holy. slept just after 9pm. this morning dreamed of kid brother. there is wet ground so likely it drizzled again in dawn. but its quite bright when i ate breakfast. now its cloudy.

9/8/2010

a lengthy rain.^the rain started last afternoon&lasting so far. i felt so many love&obligation with Masheng, my second wife from Japan. yesterday i finished raw setup with my new domain, benzrad.us, which now blocked by China authority after a day’s freedom of access, near 3pm. the task let me missed lunch. in dusk i felt restless, i asked myself what i lack, only my Royal, my beloved girls! the night’s preach in local church is on lily by a woman Priest. i sensed my girl approaching me&my new life budding. God. sees my girls bypass turbulence&join my arms in the near end.

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benzrad, 朱子卓，ate toast mutton in a Korea style restaurant, shot by baby son, warrenzh, 朱楚甲, hope of China.

baby son, warrenzh, 朱楚甲, with his proud mom, emakingir, amid a dine out.

baby son, warrenzh, 朱楚甲, God of Universe, fought against his proud dad, benzrd, 朱子卓’s kiss, amid a dine out.

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its drizzling when i breakfast in QRRS dorms canteen&heading to office in this weekend. this dawn i had a wonderful dream. i first dreamed of matching in dark. people were put in dark&sex with matches reached in dark house. i trying to find my mate but didn't excite. then dream raising a fish, namely likely Giant salamander, then in an exam to report on the fish. i always hate exam. after exam, i saw a younger fish accompany the fish we raise, the latter then has its gender. then i informed that the fish's tail and meat above shouldn't be eaten as a custom. woke up&reviewing baby's asking not to be God sometimes those days, i was so blessed that baby son, warrenzh, God of Universe, exactly my son, my dearest son. the bliss so great that i got up at once. a drizzle already passed over just amid my dream, after i made water in dawn. the breakfast is plausible, includes a sweat pie. on way to office, it drizzled again, so many loves from Masheng, my Crowned Queen of Japan. 
yesterday i visited baby son in his mom, emakingir's house. ema still in loss in her refusal loan of 400rmb to let me buy family 4th domain, benzrad.us ( http://benzrad.us ). i criticized her in our QQ chat. but my Taiwanese friend help me after rebuffed me once buy the domain exactly yesterday as i suggested in memory of Masheng, who long time urges me to own continents against future world disaster. ema buzzed me twice but both didn't reach me in noisy situation. soon after i arrived there, i told i need her loan, which greatly relief her. she lost 1900rmb and more last weekend when she answered my call on way to River Nen with baby son. that money was offered by me to buy her a e-bike to carry baby son route his kindergarten, for ema complained baby grows that she hardly carry him with her old bike. its all time a bright Saturday, i also showered in public bathroom. baby enjoyed ice cream&candy i bought by the way. i backup stuff from web, tried new games on his notebook. baby glad to see the fresh game experience. near 3pm, i hold him slept on my shoulders. then held him on my arms, till later shifted to bed. his mom urged me to leave, so i returned to dorm, where i ate an early dinner. 
in reviewing the glory of my family, my heart often fulfilled with proud. God, the only missing is my beloved girls, esp the girl on the train when i returning to Qiqihar from my dad's hometown, back to Jun 5,2010, and my girl Zhou, once appeared&hunted after by me till the company startled&stopped me. i know they praying for me, bring us together, God! 

6/8/2010

cloudy morning with periodical sunshines.^for no available helping hands for loan for my new domain, i decided trying alipay, a Chinese copy of paypal. waiting the process finished to let me pay overseas. this morning is cool, but periodical sunshine very bright&aspiring. sorted stuff, activated baby's mom, emakingir's 163 mobile email box, retouch her signatures. its the first day the company complies new national common exercise ordain. China steadily falls into trifle&loosing off&losing end. the old time collective exercise helps none but the dead in chamber, kills nothing but time&creativeness. See this Amp at http://amplify.com/u/8e3x 

5/8/2010

hopeful a new domain join my titles soon.^read. talked to Taiwanese friend for loan to buy a new domain for my web id. sorted bookmarks to include it&backup. backup family google knol to zoho wiki. sorted stuff before dinner. in dorm prepared confidential for family new member site. its a pale morning. 2 friends rebuff my plan of buy the domain. i had to delay the registry. dozed awhile after lunch, dreamed of losing in exam, which i dislike very much.

4/8/2010

dreamed of new domain buy&restless reckons of debt.^read. refined autopost to posterous among family amplify accounts. got "starcraft Ⅱ" finally, amid praying God for pardon me lingering in office for games. played badminton with the couple whose wife worked in neighbor office after dinner. baby didn't talk to me in daily buzz. dreamed of buy one or two domains for my web id, indecisive upon the cost, for my poor financial status hardly supports. join office earlier than 7am. a pale morning like yesterday but still i felt Masheng's love. God, what's the gap between our reuniting?

3/8/2010

warned of vilification from familiars.^last afternoon chatted with 2 young folks from Zhudajiu, my hometown. one serving in Chinese Navy. in night God notified me of stab from the back by folks seemingly intimates. dreamed a lot in dawn. sorted os after found its infectious. China surveillance blocked my os auto-update for quite some cases, till i adopt a lan proxy&done. office turns a hell at noon, for all crews stayed, just aim to espionage&challenge me. felt glad with a cleaner os. Masheng, save my work.

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gathered praying for new life, for new nest for new start.

baby’s mom, emakingir, likely brewing revenge these days. several times she kept smiling but tentatively hurt me by broke her promise not to do due tasks. last Saturday, i enjoyed staying with baby son in his mom’s house. but ema’s sinful kid sister slept there for several days and will stay there for more days before her Beijing tour. no one know how wrecked the cheap soul fell, but gradually it displayed its ugly paws. after i backup&sorted stuff, and gamed awhile puzzle games with baby, i felt quite exhausted. so when ema suggested haunting River Nen, i suggested the tour next day. we discussed&scheduled at 12PM in Sunday we gathered at bus stop. but next day she said she felt we arranged it 2pm. recently quites some cases she conspired to cheat to humiliated me. times i pray God just let me see it through, now that i don’t put any constrain on her, and all my old property under title of my baby son, warrenzh, who now under her custody.
after i arrived the bus stop in Qiqihar railway station square, after 2pm without a meal in the day, i buzzed her. she said she with baby son just a few runway apart. after we almost settled in bus, she found her wallet missing. she hurried to return to road she arrived, and return to her house, but can’t find it. all time on way to River Nen she felt sad and laid her head on her crossed arms on back of baby’s seat, i know her pains but without mercy nor help. baby slept on the way, but soon after the bus ported on its destiny.
when we passing the Qiqihar Peace Square, a woman colleague with her son ran across us&acquainted us. baby’s mom took her way and left us behind some miles. i told baby the day he knows how to talk with God, the day i trust my due duty oversees his growth onto himself. i want to let him know anyone with God’s bless sound&peaceful in his/her life.
for ema loathed to play with baby in cool river, i left camera to her&launched built dam with sand for baby carrying water from river with his bottle. we had a good time, till quite some people around arrested&watched our game aside motionlessly. baby never fails me, he forever does the brightest deeds, which so brilliant in Joice and harmony. anytime when i review baby’s role of play, i always found God in him, so mighty, so clearly bright, among sinful challenges around, against dirt demons attempt to pour over. God, i know times and times u r baby son, warrenzh, we trinity forever united on this planet to shines.
this is a bright morning. I’m so glad resume to workweek. no palace can nest me except with my beloved girls that praying for me&my Royal, nowhere i can avoid my goal to rebuild China as new Empire rest in God’s shine, nowhere any hostile can separate the trinity in my family, in my grand Father, my baby son, and my own that serving them, the Majesty.

30/7/2010

dream of Father.^last night most of QRRS dormers watching my response after some girls shown me friendship yesterday. i had to take my old seat occupied last dusk by a male dormer in its garden earlier to testify glory of Son. this dawn dreamed a less smart but gifted guy find love&sex with his woman among dubious pals. many sex woke me up for making water but half way join office directly without breakfast. let d/l&dozed again. dreamed in my hometown, lives in touching love among my old family, esp my siblings. when i tried to show my younger elder sister our old time photos online, the power down, then i informed baby son was taken by his angry mom, emakingir, left the village. my grand Father, God, Founder of new coming Empire of China lives for 1109 years, sees my pains and drains of unbalanced family life with ema, but his forever affirmative halts me from burning of missing baby son. then i woke up&sleepiness disappeared. its now bright outside. God, grows me harder against evil around, bring my new marriage i had been so hotly looking forward to. God, let me sip forever in beauty&freedom, immerse in breathtaking love&lovemaking.

29/7/2010

dreamed baby with animals.^dreamed played with baby son, sometimes in my hometown, with birds or animals. got up early&join office near 6:30am. last night buzzed baby’s mom, ema, about need her verification on my financial log, she promised but 4th times again she failed me now. its a bright morning. last dusk some beautiful girl souls in QRRS dorms shown me friendship. I’m so sole that i hardly accept them except source of life or timeless love.

28/7/2010

bright morning.^dreamed of dispute with baby’s mom, emakingir, over baby’s custody. got up just after 6am. breakfast then join office, where i m the first arrived. its a bright morning. reviewing baby’s mom, emakingir’s hatred against me&felt despicable&agonized. she steadily fell in losing&revenge. after all she&her family original in dark&sinful. God, i don’t self-protect against anyone, no matter innocent nor guilt. brings me my usual lightening heart, my Dad, Masheng, safeguard my baby son.
gain in invisible war.^read&attending gaining from web. the 2 office gays challenged all time&attempted lasting after work time. dined in canteen before 5:30pm. roamed in dorm room&sometimes clapped to applaud. the neighbor sin beat the paper wall in aim to exert terror. i soon haunted outside, rest on the garden bench to evade dirt in dorm. 3 ugly men there played badminton&gabbled. these 2 days the sky very clear, so attracted lots of kites fly high. missing my girls in peace, in solitary, for i waited so long for our gathering. bought more melons on way back. God, u know how i enjoy life online, aiming future gaming together. God, brings my girls in our prime time.

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mean Chinese Jul 27, 2010 10:31pm by Benzrad Zhu i guess maybe its because the founder is a Chinese, whose doctrine rightly seeking meanness. Chinese might be spiteful, esp. Chinese on mainland or under Communism or PRC. Chinese, esp. China, has to change itself. that’s God’s message in new era for the long life tribe and scary land in its recent history. the stupid insolence and meanness had to ditched, God loves human that’s noble. Chinese can’t live like herds and flocks which despises itself&worsen its living sanity&load of making a living. God choosing among Chinese, for the new start of Empire of China under title of Zhu’s, the owner of latest native Chinese nation dissolved about 300 years ago. Amplify‘d from www.yseeker.com 评论：甘居二流的雅虎 　　从问世之初，雅虎(YHOO)就是一家让人难以理解的企业，而他们不断发展的过程，甚至也可以说是一个变得让人愈来愈摸不着头脑的过程。 　　在任何事情和任何方面都甘居二流，这确实是一种奇特的习惯，但是对于雅虎而言，却早已是家常便饭。他们保持二流的身份已经多年，而且也习惯了一个又一个地扼杀掉可能大有希望的计划，因为显而易见的是，该公司没有任何人能够看出任何东西的潜力。 　　(原文：MarketWatch　作者：John C. Dvorak　译文：新浪财经) 该日志于2010-07-27 10:01由 maqingxi 发表在建议意见分类下，你可以发表评论。除了可以将这个日志以保留源地址及作者的情况下引用到你的网站或博客，还可以通过RSS 2.0订阅这个日志的所有评论。 Read more at www.yseeker.com

27/7/2010

just take a look at its owner, a feminine conspirer, whose only faith is brutality and shameless overt robbery.
brilliant morning sunshine.^dreamed baby’s mom, emakingir skimmed my latest blog. first time slept with quilt for cool in dawn. a bright morning. strike financial log. God, saves my girls, my Royal of China, bring us together sooner! hope missing of my beloved don’t weight too much of my heart. time beats all human except me, the Son, and his Royal on the planet.

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sinful copycat smothers China with its monopoly under authority’s heavy protect..

5 days ago by Benzrad Zhu

the biggest bullshits in China accord with the authority nowadays at the cost of young slaves of Chinese peasants. i will see its death&disappearance like a fog soon.
just take a look at its owner, a feminine conspirer, whose only faith is brutality and shamelessness covert robbery.

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腾讯公司对《计算机世界》杂志的声明

感谢TIMO的投递 《计算机世界》于2010年7月26日发表封面报道，对腾讯公司进行了恶毒攻击。腾讯公司对此声明如下： 腾讯是一家严谨和负责任的公司，QQ是国家认证驰名商标。多年来，我们致力于为广大用户提供优质的互联网服务，让用户的生活更丰富，更便利。我们欢迎媒体对我们的产品，服务，企业发展各方面的评论报道。  但是《计算机世界》作为专业媒体，竟然在未对腾讯公司进行任何采访的情况下，用恶劣粗言对待一家负责任的企业，用恶劣插图封面来损害我们的商标和企业形象，造成极其恶劣的影响，更粗暴伤害了广大腾讯用户的感情。

对于这种行为，我们严正谴责，并保留追究其法律责任的权利。 腾讯公司 2010年7月26日 新闻来源:腾讯网 相关报道：被《计算机世界》骂”狗日的” 腾讯：恶劣粗言 Read more at www.cnbeta.com

the impotent ruling party on China mainland.

Jul 26, 2010 10:34pm by Benzrad Zhu

Hu’s only weapon.^RT 政府现在一贯的原则是，任何重大的事故，不管对民众伤害有多大，都以爱护官员为第一前提，这几乎已成了中国官场铁律。@ranyunfei  a perceivable claim. Hu has nothing potent but the cadre system, all dogs. CCP nothing but a dog system predating common Chinese, its hierarchy heavily depend on lower level cadres as teeth&paw.China now for the new era has to cease predating human, which lasts thousand years accompanies national Confucian as covert cheating orthodox. China as a new Empire reset by Zhu’s, offspring of last native Chinese nation’s Emperor, already started by benzrad, 朱子卓’s glorious lead below God’s shine&shrine. follow us at http://wiki.be21zh.org ,&time for change among Chinese on the scary land since the fall of Ming Dynasty and now in the pitfall of communism, a handcuff from its geo-strategical enemy, Russia, the dark&theft dog of Euro-Asian continent. China belongs to God that shines over its western cultures, the greatest changer in recent history of Chinese, as well as the world after enlightenment.

26/7/2010

a bright morning after sudden thunderstorm in dawn.^breakfast in canteen when its pale in sky. join office&prepared recent photos for a blog entry for the reuniting after i settled again in QRRS dorms for new marriage when it turns sunny. Internet via corporate lan down twice, power down another amid my posting. China surveillance surely knows what a intimidation they want to exert. read it http://iidchina.blog.hexun.com/54177933_d.html

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forever union with baby son, God of Universe.

yesterday is the day i treated baby son, warrenzh, owner of domain warozhu.com, second since my returned from hometown journey. i also bought myself a new pair of shoes i like from Fu-Mart. in my life i rarely bought myself clothes. before adulthood, clothes arranged by mother; early years after i worked from graduation, i put quite some of my deposit for kid brother’s education, for my grand dad then dislike to hard labor work on stone product; in early years after married, the mother-in-law offered quite some old clothes of her second husband, a cadre just bankrupt his work unit. i in fact quite enjoy put on myself in my own taste or fashion. in the conjoined KFC, baby enjoyed KFC food as usual. i can be more glad to see he eating. his mom, emakingir, disliked cooking in her life so far, and baby son had to endure tasteless food, and grows a habit disliking routine meals, but snacks.
returned from shopping&snacking, i slept in dorm in afternoon sunshine. after woke up, i noticed a group of hooligans, about 8 men or more, lingered in the open space of the dorms babbling&poking&gambling for most of the day. they want to expand their influence over the graduates in the dorms. when i dial to report the high rank of QRRS on the unlawful&wrong management of the dorms’ administration, the gangsters scattered. after dinner in the canteen, i rest on the bench again. soon an elder with a small bag approached me and asked where is the dorm. i told him but felt strange. then my cellphone reminds me time to join the preach in nearby church. the Priest elaborated a lot on Satan, let a demon aside me groan. after the preach i discussed it with the Priest, i told him i more glad to hear of faith and love from Bible. in dorm i slept as usual around 9pm, but visited a guy in the dorm who playing online shooting game. i was likely caught in nightmare, dreamed live with a foreigner, then in campus or office i can’t move or stand up. i felt the evil of the old man in dusk in the dorm attempting to talk with me. then a sudden thunderstorm woke me up. its strong and speedy, i watched it a sight then slept again. i breakfast when i still pale in morning night, but it turns brilliant now since i joined office.
God, its my first time reunited with baby son, Hope of China, God of Universe, warrenzh, since u admits me pursue my new marriage from my second hometown journey and a short period lingering in his mom’s house to attend him. God, let me sooner rest in my new home with my beloved girls, to carter baby son in best harmony and peace in soul. God, i trust u, bring my girls to my arms, we all in our best time now and to come.

25/7/2010

visit baby son in his mom’s home.^visit baby son as scheduled. backup new stuff, mostly pc games,from web to dvds. reviewed finance log with baby’s mom,emakingir, who found some faults but finally likes the site,buxfer.com&started to make use of it. prepared new games on notebook for baby. lunched there but daunted by dinner which too simple. showered&made a contract with ema to pay her to wash my clothes every week.
enjoy talk with baby on air.^dined in dorms’ canteen, with some shrimps. sorted infected os. buzzed baby twice for the elation of God’s glory among us. slept later than 10pm&didn’t brush teeth.

24/7/2010

amend finance records.^read all day. dozed twice. d/l delayed me&left office near 6pm. dinner again not so satisfying. bought&ate watermelon after roamed outside. met the only Hubeier in QRRS near dorm’s door. he talking on his cell, so i just evade him&enter my room. the first day i returned to dorm he called in for loan. during jog my shoes wrecked. buzzed baby’s mom about the effect&surplus after i verified personal finance log on buxfer.com.
dreamed in love.^dreamed with my beloved girl, &brothers or pals, in a tour. we tried to attach fireworks onto balls in motion. a bit sleepy after got up. lingered&breakfast then join office, where the porter shown hostile yesterday when i arrived a bot earlier. its a quite bright morning.
check family google sites.^assess family assets, esp. that with google, like sites&blogspot. some broken linkages need actions but hold on. baby’s mom, emakingir, let me query departmental clerk for reimbursement accord to corporate policy, i was told the clerk glad to let baby’s grandma to fetch it like she previously did. hopeful i can do some replacement of worn shoes or clothing with the money. i promised ema buying her a electronic motorcycle.
check my brand online.^read&d/l all day. the facing demons tentatively/elicit shown gay tendency, one of them left lately. google my id&researched why my name appears in a joke site, pjoke.com, but can’t find who input my name there with a praying heart. China surveillance also frequently blocked my googling amid. God, bring my girls to me sooner!

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World need see clear the impotent of nowadays China. Jul 23, 2010 4:33am by Benzrad Zhu thx the author insightful review on technology in nowadays China, quite shocking but just assures my guess on the real source or potential of Chinese technology today. China will never update itself under current social-political architecture, i can assert with any risk, for the ruling philosophy is hatred, rubbery, coward, dumping of Chinese traditional core ethic, like any long life society, honesty and diligence. China in communism totally a miracle and disaster, like a cheat from its long time enemy, Russia, to bail out Chinese real treasure for sold cheap. Communism China is a dumping of torture, dark, stealth, and pouring out of dirt among eastern and western. its a death and abnormal. China, in its best blessed, in title of Zhu, the last Emperor of last native nationality, steers into new Empire under God’s shrine&shine, for the glory of YHWH. a merging reality for most Chinese grows everyday on this scary land since its fall in Ming Dynasty, i vow i, benzrad, 朱子卓, my Royal of China, leading it. Amplify’d from www.dapenti.com [一种声音]从电子行业看中国的科技现状 xilei 发布于 2010-7-23 10:46:00 看到一些弱智在网上宣扬中国有多么强大，似乎要一统天下了，这些人要么是被收买的，要么是真的无知。长话短说，本人作为一个10年的电子工程师，就从电子行业看中国现状。 我记得增经看一个机械工程师说的，如果离开德国的母机，中国的机械行业就彻底完蛋。 世界离开中国，生活成本或者生产成本会略高一点，但也就几个百分点而已，因为中国其实也就在整个产业链中占据着利润最低，产值最小的一个环节而已，也就帮老外在组装阶段省了几个人公费。 国家的悲剧在于没有进步的希望，和国外的差距越来越大。 来源：科学堂 链接：http://scienceroom.net/current-of-electronics-industry-in-china-650.html Read more at www.dapenti.com

22/7/2010

the dorms’ canteen turns worse.^d/l delayed me near an hour. the canteen again used bad food&hurt my teeth. rested on bench then haunted outside. drizzled some minutes when i passed by the place i met the QRRS high rank yesterday. bought sausage&ate in dorms open space. buzzed baby who unhappy with his mom&expressed my love. washed shirt manually for the dorms’ laundry bankrupted. in music&felt fit.

21/7/2010

dubious gawker around glory of Son.^read while d/l. dined almost on time. rest on the bench again. quite some dubious persons lingered around. the thunderstorm let many streets, including some in QRRS dorm covered with water. haunted outside then roamed in the open space of QRRS dorm. a cop surveillance me when i watched a collective dance. buzzed baby&slept before 10pm.
dreamed of my inauguration in dawn.^got up to make water among sound sleep. dreamed of my inauguration as Emperor of China. but my beloved girls seemingly didn’t appear, but my sisters and some of my relatives join the ceremony. breakfast with porridge and buns. last night in jog met the high rank in QRRS, a Zhou, who also jogging with his wife. that reminds me life’s passing and years biting&beating most people witness my growth, glory of God’s way. its a sunny morning now.
read most day while d/l.^a busy day digesting news feeds. i felt so glad to see the dawn&online in the beginning of the day. listening online radio, which starts with a Japanese song, at noon break. the wrecked soul in facing desk at once interfered like a barking dog for lower volume. all afternoon enjoyed reading even among bites from the devil. God, im thankful for the day&what i done in it.

From 1st gathering after settled in QRRS dorms

From 1st gathering after settled in QRRS dorms

From 1st gathering after settled in QRRS dorms

From 1st gathering after settled in QRRS dorms

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early moon in dusk over QRRS.

baby son, warrenzh, 朱楚甲, with his favorite KFC steamed corn stick.

most beloved Son, benzrad&warrenzh, 朱子卓和朱楚甲, 深情的神情。

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a boarder again, for the purity&sanity of my Royal of China.

returned to dorm of QRRS, my once long time employer, after baby was brought by his mom, emakingir to hospital for frequent heat, after sleepy morning on Jul 17th, lunar Jun 6th. God informs me baby don’t need my struggle with his mom now for custody or better family education, but let it go in God’s shine, and a due time period ahead when i will live with baby son closely without any dispute, in a much more affirmative environment. i launched to prepare a funny game on the notebook accompany him baby son asked last night, then left. baggage already prepared yesterday, likely by ema or her mother, likely just reminds me time to leave them alone. i had told ema that my heart never linger in her house a second, but my girls’ ahead, back to a weeks ago when there is only us two in her house. baby attracted by those pc games i prepared for him, but soon he shown larger anticipations, or reserved time-space for larger events in the mission against the sins in nowadays China as well as the world as God, Father, sets. so its time for us each to concentrate our will power for the commence of new era, for the sunray of enlightenment, for the never seen glory of God’s way.
i never felt enough for the moment gaming with baby son on pc, the moment we gathered. but best way to raise us against the sin and dirt from his mom’s family, including ema herself, is to avoid it sooner. that’s God’s message in last night preach from a local church i visited after months apart for some sinful members’ hostile against me there. God, protects me against all impotent seduce, let me in unshiftable faith in God, my dad&son, in trinity. i picked the package almost intact from my hometown journey, returned to QRRS’ dorm by bus. in the weekends, i slept a lot, otherwise in deeper sorrow for my missing girls. i sat on the bench in the garden of the dorms’ area, my sadness called clouds rich with raindrops. i sensed the weight of my sadness, which attracted quite some hostile among the community, but i knew more bliss ahead that my beloved girls can touch. God, i never missing ur blessing surrounding my girls, my Royal of China, that changes my vested land as well as other parts of the world far and long-reaching.
its again a Monday for which i put on my hope in the timeless lonely and sleepless sleeps. i know nothing in the world still nor lifeless, i know the eyes and pray among my girls. i need u, too, my best beloved. i need ur life, ur house so eager, that i see through the fragile blockage between us or the dark and our sovereign. i know God, and his promise upon my respectable ancestor, Emperor of Ming Dynasty, lasts today, the rich of my Royal, the harmony of peace and soul. i know u, a u and all u, there to pick me, or picked by me. i know party and timeless gathering prepared under the dome of glory of shrine&shine. i know that’s definitely.
Bye, my dearest, this moment i also feeling sad. for some many time elapsed from our first impression. dearest, u know time to ignite it and last it forever. join me, just us, for the step for new kingdom and millennium is closer and fresher.

17/7/2010

enjoy weekends after first work week in office.^update my albums on hexun&chinamobile’s community. managed my family brand through search engines. it rains now outside. hope baby’s growth shiny&harmony. left office till 6pm after d/l finished. sorted stuff from web&backup. baby’s heat deceased but still weak, just gamed awhile with me on notebook while i enjoy the shooting game very much. slept earlier. this morning is sunny. baby watching animation.

16/7/2010

left office near 6pm after d/l finished. gamed awhile with baby on notebook then he got heat again. his mom, emakingir, had him medicines. slept earlier. mistakenly regard today as Saturday. let d/l then dozed again. after baby&his mom remind my err, ema was called to join her school, let me cared baby awhile. soon the grandma arrived. God let me stay&played pc game with baby till his mom, emakingir returned&fetched him to hospital. i join office. the sinful grandma still cleaning house in her dirty daughter’s house. the game attracted me a lot. baby wanted to try another old game.
drizzled at noon.^read in the morning. it turns dark&drizzled at noon. i enjoy fast food in office as usual. claimed company profile, zhuson.com with linkedin. glad to see weekend tomorrow, even baby’s mom, emakingir urged me to leave her house several times recently. i also hardly bear her stupidity, esp that on baby’s custody.

15/7/2010

felt sins in baby’s mom, emakingir on way to office.^last night left office near 6pm. gamed with baby on pc in night. ema brought baby showered, but she did firt while let play aside. this morning baby release a plenty urine. baby was sent to kindergarten. i was sleeping when ema brought her kids students returned. on way to office, felt the screaming sins in ema’s heart. no matter how i treat her generously, she reckon a way to profit and profane. hatred ate my heart when i review baby and my situation. but after all, faith in God saves and improves we both intouchable above the sinful family of baby’s mom’s. sorted stuff first in office. browser, chrome, works faultlessly.
read most day.^read most feeds awaiting. dozed awhile in beginning of afternoon while d/l. commented a lot. collected some new science blogs’ feeds. watched outside in rush time of QRRS but no clue where is my girl zhou once appeared as a QRRSer. praying for change sooner in China, as well as in my life, Royal of China.

14/7/2010

tried to fix 2 windows.^since morning prepared clean os on a female colleague’s pc, then my own notebook. China surveillance likely close watching&result in quite some abnormal behaviors amid fixing. hope time cost heals. my chrome at least less crash now. God sees.

From life as it extends

From life as it extends

From life as it extends

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Benzrad, me, now again live in QRRS dorm.

another sky likely rains cats&dogs, but peace enjoy here in QRRS dorms.

life rolling, new or old? but at least heart praying is bleeding every moment for timeless love.

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new peace in praying, praying for my new marriage.

God kept me offline for 10 days, brings sally&me into echo.

it has been more than 10 days since my Internet connection broke. in those days, i itching for surfing, for seamless webbing, but i had to live with God’s setting to let me calm down, now that i also saw trifle online, esp. microblog portals domestically. when i was kept offline, i interacted with folks in my hometown village more, and surveyed more places around the village, including the road, school, field, closest neighbor village, Shanggui, whose residential long time dominated the cadre team of the local government. no doubt i shot more photos for villagers, for the history of the land my passed dad, God, owns, had to be reviewed and polished. in the process, i more and more felt the pains of missing my baby son, warrenzh, hope of China, who now under his mom, emakingir’s custody. sometimes when i buzzed in, baby replied in weak voice, which let me more burnout, afraid he suffering missing me, his dad. God, Masheng accompanied me&talked more with me. i was brought the view on relation with my Guangdong girl, Sally. so recent days i tried to contact her, who just returned Shanghai for her graduation ceremony from Guangzhou, where she works. so many pleasure in exchange words with her on air or by sms, but our future still in molding in God’s shine. i m quite sure she will become my second 4th wife, parallel with my Taiwan fiancee with whom i only met 2 times in Qiqihar, both with baby’s companion. that’s what God and Masheng assures me from the start back to my first hometown journey 2 years ago, when i first time asked her for marriage.
Ok, its a sultry noon. i prepared blogging, including photos, since early morning. my keyboard turns sticky now. bye, all my beloved. bright belongs to us. i assert here i own the world from my ancestor and beyond.

13/6/2010

niece returned to Wuhan after a night at home.^prepared workspace before breakfast. invited visiting niece&her niece eating together. the little girl gamed since them, while i napped awhile. niece left&returned to Wuhan to join her college.

12/6/2010

God kills a baby girl in Zhudajiu.^read most day while attending d/l. napped awhile at noon when the evil back door neighbors babbled. then niece returned from Wuhan, before her 3rd year summer college vacation, enjoy snack she brought&rabbled. the granddaughter of elder brother returned from her kindergarten, gamed with a evil neighbor kid. i bathed before dinner. haunted outside, first chatted with the only taxi driver in Zhudajiu, then attracted by a vcd of local opera. when i stood on second floor of elder brother’s house, a baby girl drown in her grandpa’s indoor pool, which is the only case among villagers who has such a spacious yard. lingered some time with the doctor. continued to help niece claim her vanity url for her qq mail, blog&microblog. talked to baby son on phone, alermed him&his mom the threat of drown, as well as other sinful murdering plot i sensed these days in Zhudajiu, the polluted land by historical wrong doings among villagers.
let mother not to memorize ancestor with crackers&burning yellow paper.^today its lunar May 1st, lots of families in Zhudajiu held ceremony praying&memorizing their passed relatives as well as ancestors with kneels&crackers&burning yellow paper which regarded as money in the other world for their ancestors. i was woke by crackers everywhere&got annoyed. tried to got music online but again failed, likes the case of online radio i discussed it previously. in breakfast told mother give up traditional commemoration way, she nodded even reluctant. its a cloudy morning.

benzrad’s comment on the day.

benzrad朱本主子卓 (http://t.qq.com/bentchu) 转播: i agree. common Chinese half-disabled by constrained from gun while dog system like cops armed to teeth. people must be empowered anyway anytime.
连岳 (http://t.qq.com/lianyue) :据《瞭望》新闻周刊：我国枪支管理制度松懈，售买渠道半公开存在，地下交屡禁不止。——我觉得让民众手头有枪，弊大于利，没什么不好的。

11/6/2010

folks wondered me.^posting blog lasted after noon for likely blocking over some of my sites. near dinner let neighbor boy, a demon, played game on my notebook. haunted outside after rich dinner, frequented a cordial wife in the village. played with kids in front space. later revisited the wife whose family dining. lots of evil probings whipped in my mind before i worked in night. baby’s mom, emakingir dined out with his colleagues, reluctant to go online, fine tuned family google knols till near 10pm.
post a blog entry.^recent morning got up lately, likely worked too late in night, usually after 10pm before went to bad. prepared&post a blog to include tweets&photos, also a video of raining since breakfast. mother bought some litchi for me&quite sweet&juicy. its a sunny morning.

From Hometown Journey Ⅱ

From Hometown Journey Ⅱ

From Hometown Journey Ⅱ

From Hometown Journey Ⅱ

From Hometown Journey Ⅱ

for picasaweb&flickr blocked within China mainland, the shit&dog dominated sinful land, here some digest of photos hosted domestically.

A drizzle wrinkles on the surface of one of Zhudajiu’s ponds.

a bird rest on a power line support pole.

a sunset over Zhudajiu village.

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